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be happy for this moment, this moment is your life.

9 Jul

I’ve found that since I’ve graduated, this blog has taken on an entirely different role in my life. I don’t post as much, but I still enjoy getting my thoughts out there.

I’ve come up with my life goal. It’s going to sound weird, but it truly is my life goal, and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

When I am old and gray, I want my face to be worn with wrinkles and smile lines. I want everyone who sees me to know that I have lived a full and happy life. I want to grow old with someone I love, and I want to be able to say that I am happy with what I’ve accomplished in my life.

I didn’t really think of this as my life goal until a few days ago. I was walking around town with some of my friends, and I saw an old couple walking. They were arm in arm, smiling, laughing, and looking around. They were ecstatic about living. I didn’t say anything to the people I was walking with, but they truly had an impact on me. Just they way they were so in love with each other, and despite the fact that they were going to be dying soon (they looked to be about 85) they were still so happy. They didn’t have a care in the world. Just laughing and smiling, going on with life. That’s how I want to live through my old age.

Today I will be happier than a bird with a french fry…

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I’ve been put through hell and back,

5 Jul

and I’m not going through it again.

bah.

Inside I hope you know I’m dying,

with my heart beside me,

in shattered pieces that may never be replaced.

And if I died right now, you’d never be the same.”

Mayday Parade = Love(:

this is the part where you find out who you are.

30 Jun

to hell with your new shit, and whether or not you think you fit in.

-The Maineee(:

I’m becoming a new person. I don’t care about materialistic things anymore, and quite frankly, I don’t care about 3/4 of the people I talked to before. All I care about is being happy, and pleasing myself. After graduation, I realized who is really there for me, and who really cares. I realized that I need to grow up, and stop thinking about others so much.

It didn’t really hit me until this morning, when I was looking at my ex-boyfriend’s myspace page and I realized just how much I don’t like him. I realized that I let him hurt me because I worried about people thinking about me. I don’t anymore, and I’m happier than ever.

I’m rethinking moving to England right after high school graduation, because I think I need to be with my family. We’re having a new baby, moving into a new house, and I’m going to have a new stepmom and stepsister. It’s surreal. I don’t know what to do about that.

Anyway, if you’re getting stressed about everything coming down on you, just sit back and think about who and what you really need. Idid, and not only is a huge weight lifted from my shoulders, but I’m happier than ever. I highly reccomend it(:

life.

18 Jun

I absolutely love summer. I’m going to make this summer one to remember, too. I think its a good thing to do, considering it may be the last time I’ll EVER see anyone from Burdick. It’s kind of scary, if you think about it. I mean, it’s the big time now. No more hiding behind Daddy for my mistakes; its all me. I’m not in elementary school anymore. People are starting to see me as an adult, and accept my visuals on things. In 4 years, I’ll be able to vote, buy a house, have contracts in my own name, and have accounts in my own name. I’ve always wanted to grow up, but, now that it’s happening, I almost want to stay a kid. I’m scared that I won’t be able to do what’s neccessary to live in the “real world.” One mistake, that’s all it could take to mess it all up. I really need to think about what I want to do with my life now. I need to think about college, and saving money, in order to survive on my own in just a few short years. I need to realize what’s best for me, and stop trying to please other people.

Its scary to think that all of this is happening so fast. I’ll be classified as an adult soon, and I’m scared of that. I don’t want everything to fall on me. I mean, I can get married in a few years. I can make vital life decisions, and I’m scared.

I’m also excited though, because with all of this responsibility, comes the ability to control my own life. I will be able to decide what I want, go where I want to go, and do what I want to do. I’ll be able to see who I want to see, and say what I want to say. It’ll be great.

“Take time to contemplate who you are, and where

you want to go.”

-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I said I would keep up my blog,

13 Jun

And so I follow through. Although, now that I’ve graduated… ha, Skonecki, I am going to post whatever I please on here. So, it will be a bit more interesting(:

So far, even though I’ve only really been on summer break for like a day, its going good. Graduation was really great. My dress worked out good, my hair looked great, and my makeup looked better than I expected. I didn’t get the whole year honor roll thing, but whateverrr.

After graduation I went over by my aunt’s with Amanda for a little while. We ate and ate and ate and ate, then we went in the hot tub, haha. After we left, which was at around 7, we went up to Airport Park. We were supposed to just hang out with Nick, but he was running late- naughty, naughty, Nick- and we called Brandon. Brandon and Amanda and I were walking up to Taco Bell, when we ran into Dakota, a girl I used to go to school with. We ended up calling Hayden, and walking around with him. My night was… interesting to say the least.

But, I’m super duper excited for summer. I plan on accomplishing all of my goals, and working ridiculously hard on grasping the concept of macro photography. I also have 8 hours… at least, a  day where I can sit at home and do nothing. Fun, eh? But I’m getting paid $50 a week to babysit my little brother, who just wants to be outside all the time. It should be a piece of cake.

excitment! (:

8 Jun

I HAD A BEYOND EXCITING WEEKEND!

It started on Friday, and I just had my friend Lizzy sleepover since I couldn’t leave the house. We watched movies, ate, and had a campfire with my dad and Jenny. It was pretty coooool(:

But Saturday is when all the excitement went down! I woke up to a call from my dad saying “Whatever you do, don’t let Sam leave the house right now.”

This, of course, freaked me out beyond belief so I started panicking and asking what was going on. All he told me was that there was a bunch of cops outside with guns. MORE PANIC!

So, Sam stayed asleep and me and Lizzy were just freaking out in the house. Then a knock came on the door, and it was a Wauwatosa policeman. I remember his words exactly:

“Maam, you need to stay in your house, because there is a man in the building across from you with a loaded weapon. In order to keep you safe, we have SWAT teams positioned in various places all over the complex. If anything further occurs, you need to leave.”

WHAT?!

So we just waited, and watched. Turns out, that Wauwatosa, Cudahy, Oak Creek, South Milwaukee, Milwaukee, West Milwaukee, Greendale, Greefield, and Glendale and all sent their police forces to help us out.

We ended up being held in our apartment building until about 11 AM.

Turns out, that our neighbor, Andre, had shot at his girlfriend’s van 5 times, and continued to shoot off shots at various times throughout the morning. He then barricaded himself in his apartment and had a standoff with all those policemen. Smart, eh?

I got about 3 hours of sleep.

4 Jun

Considering I’m a recovered insomniac, sleep means a lot to me. I sleep a lot now that I actually CAN sleep. But, last night, I got absolutely NO sleep.

My dog puked ALL over my room at about 7, so I had to clean my carpet, wash ALL of the clothes that were on the floor, and wash my dog, and try and get the stench out of there.

So, needless to say, I’m ridiculously tired today, and if I snap on you, don’t take it personally.

You’ve all been warned (: