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life.

18 Jun

I absolutely love summer. I’m going to make this summer one to remember, too. I think its a good thing to do, considering it may be the last time I’ll EVER see anyone from Burdick. It’s kind of scary, if you think about it. I mean, it’s the big time now. No more hiding behind Daddy for my mistakes; its all me. I’m not in elementary school anymore. People are starting to see me as an adult, and accept my visuals on things. In 4 years, I’ll be able to vote, buy a house, have contracts in my own name, and have accounts in my own name. I’ve always wanted to grow up, but, now that it’s happening, I almost want to stay a kid. I’m scared that I won’t be able to do what’s neccessary to live in the “real world.” One mistake, that’s all it could take to mess it all up. I really need to think about what I want to do with my life now. I need to think about college, and saving money, in order to survive on my own in just a few short years. I need to realize what’s best for me, and stop trying to please other people.

Its scary to think that all of this is happening so fast. I’ll be classified as an adult soon, and I’m scared of that. I don’t want everything to fall on me. I mean, I can get married in a few years. I can make vital life decisions, and I’m scared.

I’m also excited though, because with all of this responsibility, comes the ability to control my own life. I will be able to decide what I want, go where I want to go, and do what I want to do. I’ll be able to see who I want to see, and say what I want to say. It’ll be great.

“Take time to contemplate who you are, and where

you want to go.”

-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

excitment! (:

8 Jun

I HAD A BEYOND EXCITING WEEKEND!

It started on Friday, and I just had my friend Lizzy sleepover since I couldn’t leave the house. We watched movies, ate, and had a campfire with my dad and Jenny. It was pretty coooool(:

But Saturday is when all the excitement went down! I woke up to a call from my dad saying “Whatever you do, don’t let Sam leave the house right now.”

This, of course, freaked me out beyond belief so I started panicking and asking what was going on. All he told me was that there was a bunch of cops outside with guns. MORE PANIC!

So, Sam stayed asleep and me and Lizzy were just freaking out in the house. Then a knock came on the door, and it was a Wauwatosa policeman. I remember his words exactly:

“Maam, you need to stay in your house, because there is a man in the building across from you with a loaded weapon. In order to keep you safe, we have SWAT teams positioned in various places all over the complex. If anything further occurs, you need to leave.”

WHAT?!

So we just waited, and watched. Turns out, that Wauwatosa, Cudahy, Oak Creek, South Milwaukee, Milwaukee, West Milwaukee, Greendale, Greefield, and Glendale and all sent their police forces to help us out.

We ended up being held in our apartment building until about 11 AM.

Turns out, that our neighbor, Andre, had shot at his girlfriend’s van 5 times, and continued to shoot off shots at various times throughout the morning. He then barricaded himself in his apartment and had a standoff with all those policemen. Smart, eh?

save the drama fo’ yo mamma(:

27 May

I don’t really care about everyone’s drama. I’m pretty sick of everyone at this school starting stuff with everyone. This school is too filled with drama.

Oh; and I find it funny how everybody always is against one person, in their mind, when that one person has been being “bogus” for over 2 years! Funny funny funny!

26 May

we never know what’s wrong without the pain, sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing, are the same.

I have definitely learned this to be true lately. I have had to make some ridiculously tough decisions, but, I guess they’re for the best. They are going to benefit me somehow… I know it

hobos pwn all of you.

22 May

So, last night I went to Sheridan Park with my friend Aaron and some dude named… Jesse? I don’t remember, anyway, we were walking along the beach, and there was this hobo. He was chillin’ by a fire, and I was freezing my booootay off, so I went up and I was just like “Dude, can I chill by the fire with you?”

Then he was all like “Yeahhhhh, man. Come on chill with me by the fire.”

So we were talking, and apparently, dude like lost everything after someone killed his wife and kids, and then he became a hobo and he’s happier then ever!!! He like travels the state all the time, and stuff. Like, yesterday alone, he had traveled from Kenosha to Cudahy. Oh, and he stole this chicken from a farmer, and he was like gutting it and roasting it. A whole freaking chicken!!!!

So, needless to say, this hobo is my hero.

24xj8rs

“But, despite everything,

1 Apr

I still believe people are good at heart.”

Don’t you love having a reputation somewhere before you’ve ever been there?! YAY!

Paige, that’s All Time Low; the band we’re going to recreate the world with after the terrible bloodbath.

The results of being grounded;

27 Mar

As a result of everything in my life coming crashing down at once, I’ve been grounded. Fantastic. Well, I didn’t have my phone for the past two days, I had to have things to do. This is what I’ve accomplished/learned.

1) Every lyric to every Nirvana song ever written to my knowledge.

2) I’ve completed the sudokus on Brain Age for my DS.

3) That you really can run out of tears to cry.

4) The sun rose at around 6:45 Am yesterday

5) I’ve read The Perks of Being a Wallflower 3 times in the past week.

6) And I started Its Kind of a Funny Story… again.

7) I’ve also learned that no matter what I say to my father, my punishment for whatever I have done, will not be revoked.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower;

24 Mar

is my new favorite book.

ANYWHOOOO(:

I FINALLY CAME UP WITH MY SCIENCE PROJECT!!!!

My topic is the contradiction between teen morals and teens active sex lives.

My cousin did her Master’s paper on this, so my research should be fairly easy. I’m going to look at it more from a social science perspective, and I think it’ll be really interesting. I think that it will make me look really mature, and this will be pretty impressive when I’m looking at highschools and applying for the higher classes. I’m pretty psyched(:

But, I do need help with a question…

help meee!

life;

19 Mar

One thing doesn’t make a man…

So trueee. I honestly don’t think that I could’ve found a more fitting song lyric for my life at the moment. I’ve messed up… a lot. I didn’t even know I was doing some of it. But hey,

one thing doesn’t make a man.

I want to be nicer. I want to be prettier. I want to be cleaner. I want to be thinner. I want to be a better photographer.

I’m going to be nicer. I’m going to be prettier. I’m going to be cleaner. I’m going to be thinner. I’m going to be a better photographer.

Don’t try and stop me.


I recently blogged…

6 Mar

about having the worst day in the history of bad days.

Today topped it. It started off with my dad yelling at me for no apparent reason. Then, my cookie that I was eating for breakfast got stolen by my dog. Thennnn, I got to school, and couldn’t get to my locker because Josh and Paige were pushing each other. Thats when it hit me that it just wasn’t going to be a good day.

Things were actually alright for a few hours. Then, it all went downhill.

I got in a huge fight with Jordan. Then, I went over to his house, to talk to him about it in person, and we went to Sheraton Park. Then, in the middle of fighting, the mud started sliding on the giant cliff that I was on, and I almost fell. Jordan saved my life. I owe him a dollar.

Oh, and his mom broke her knee.

Then, he was going to move up north. 😦

Oh, and this dude cut me and my dad off while we were driving home, and I almost died there too…

worst. day. ever.